Monday, February 25, 2013

What does retired mean?

As you know I retired from running races and I was graciously inducted into the hall of fame. I am full of gratitude for this honor. I wanted to be the first women to do 10 Badwater races, however my last try did not turn out the way I had planned and dreamed about. I was taking Celebrex for my foot pain, out of shape and needless to say “the perfect storm” hit me. I spent 6 days in the hospital in Lone Pine, and accumulated an extra 38 pounds of fluid. I was one very sick person. After out of the hospital Sister Marybeth reminded me that I was the first women to do 10 Badwater races. One year 7 miles from the finish line I had to get an IV, I went back and finished the race but was NOF, as it should have been. Sister Marybeth asked me..”Who do you need credit from to be the first women to have 10 Badwaters?” This question hit me hard as it sunk into my heart. Did I need the credit of the race, would I give myself credit? Who had to give me the credit?? Sister Marybeth said, “God gives you credit Lisa, his credit is the only one that really matters”. WOW! She was right! I am the first women to do 10 Badwater races. God gives me credit and I give myself credit. Amen. A few weeks ago I went on a 10 mile walk . I was praying, meditating, crying and thinking about the big journey I am dreaming about in Death Valley this summer. Very few people know my plan but I am going to attempt the Badwater Quad. The missions Marshall Ulrich and I raise money for need our help. We have 7 missions that each have over 700 children. Four of them have NO water at all and the other three have broken water wells. Doing the Quad will be to raise money for water wells and clean water for all of these children. Anyone else want to help raise money? We need to raise $70,000. Dreamchasers Foundation! On my walk I started to think about the race and my EGO said “YES Lisa why not make your journey part of the race and GET the OFFICIAL 10th Badwater and have the credit of the race as well as God and yourself.” I started to laugh because as I was walking I said out loud, “NO”. Then (as we all have at times) my mind went back and forth, “Why not? Well because I retired. You can just finish the race, you don’t have to race the race…” HAHA. Will the real Lisa please stand up!! Ego is something we all have, I have tried for a very long time to leave mine at the door!! We all have ego and I feel at the age of 52 mine is a healthy ego. For so long my dream was to be the first women to complete 10 Badwater races. As an athlete or non- athlete I know all of you can appreciate the hard part of letting go of a dream, moving past it, and acceptance. I have not been able to let go of the fact that I don’t have completion. I have unfinished business. My life is about no regrets and no second thoughts… I would always have a twinge of regret about not making it “official”…. It would be a grain of sand in my shoe. I think that I may owe myself one last shot at the official 10th. This is not about EGO… this is about self-fulfillment. It is also about unfinished business. My personal goal was always to have 10 official Badwater races. I don’t have any desire to race any longer or to beat people. The desire to complete my goal of 10 is what I have not let go of. Let the training begin. I am honored that I will stand one last time at the starting line of the Badwater 135 with so many wonderful and amazing friends. My heart is full of gratitude!

11 comments:

Frank Fumich said...

very well said Lisa and I totally agree...GO FOR IT!!!

RunPhobia - Al F. Kader said...

This is the story of chasing a dream of compassion with passion. A friend, a coach, and a legend in the world of running, Lisa is a true Dreamchaser! Drive on Lisa!

Gerard Martinez said...

Go get it Lisa! This is YOUR story, YOUR destiny! Own it... No regrets.

marieboyd said...

Go for it my friend! Do we need to talk about anything??!!!
Love always,
Marie
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James Murray said...

Is it true? A Badwater quad? That is AWESOME!

Most can't fathom a single crossing. A few of us hope for the opportunity for just one. This is an epic event for a wonderful cause. I dare not say an exclamation mark on a purpose filled running career as we all know there is plenty left in the tank for at least a hundred more crossings. I may even join you for one. Go get 'em Lisa and Don't Stop running!

Rambling Scholar said...
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Rambling Scholar said...

Lisa,
Just because you retired from racing does not mean that you retired from running? Badwater's uniqueness has two parts -- its family (unparalleled in any community) and taking in the beauty of Death Valley. I can't think of a better way to experience the family and the beauty than to just get out there on foot -- run, walk, whatever it takes.Follow your heart and we'll all be right there with you!

Thomas Bussiere said...

Retire, stop, step down, out to pasture,… We can take a break, or change direction, but athletes never really retire. We just may not be as fast, as strong, or go as far, but the passion that drives our engine will not stay at rest long. It is what we are.

Looking forward to hearing about your training for the race I would love to do just once. And you are going for No. 11 – WOW. You are blessed.

Jarom's Running Page said...

Atta girl Lisa! You know I care deeply about you and believe in you and support you. Be it your first or tenth, it's a personal challenge every time and it's time to remove that grain of sand from your shoe and follow your dream :) Jarom

amatauccello said...

Lisa asked me to share this. <3 you Lisa. Thanks for everything you do for me and all of us :) http://runloving.com/2013/03/01/desire/

Sarah Stanley said...

You are amazing, Lisa! Will be praying for you as you train and then run Badwater FOUR times (oh my word...). Love you!